Leaving..

i know you're doing well.. sorry for writing this update.. here i'm going to tell you the reason i'm being like this, not only for you but for the rest that curious about what's happen to us..i know you not care about me anymore and trying to forget me, just forget me.. even after reading this.. i just want you to know and leave me in a  good way not leave me because hate me.. do you think that i leave you because i'm not love you anymore? not care anymore? not, and it's never be like that.. just like she said.. just like her, i have never though about leaving you since the first day i meet you and all the promises is true and i meant it.. but.. what will you feel if you're in my side.. what will you feel is i changed just in a days? after meeting someone new, i'm changed? maybe it's just me, maybe i shouldn't think this way but did you forget all of our memories? all of our ways ? how's we used to be ? how we used to treat each other? i told you right? that i will be with you like before after my exam.. and i'm always smile for the though that you will make me smile with your crazy brain.. but when i comeback, i think it's better if i go.. i can't accept the way we are now because it's so suddenly.. after the decision, i'm starting live up my day with a though of you, with the tears.. when our past memories playing in my mind..i hate myself for doing this but i'm also pity toward my self whom suffered.. just like you feels before, 'like a younger sister' 'like a family' i too feels the same, you are like a older brother, a family, and a special friends for me.. yaya is my best friends, the one i cherish and like a family.. it's different and i love both of you.. it's not been a months, but it's a years now.. i will never forgive myself, and i will always feels regret to make this decision.. how can i leave people who make me smile for real, who changed my life, who make me forget the miss for my late-brother, who know me more than other people.. before, you trying to leave me but i'm always fight for it.. now, i knoe you're going to be okay even without me, you already has someonelse that you can share your problem with, that you love, that you feels comfortable.. i feels sad seeing you changed, you treat me just the same as your others girl friends.. and i miss the old you, i miss the old us.. i miss our jokes, our goodbyes, our morning, our night.. i know you it better if i go.. i know you're hurting but i'm hurting more than you do.. i'm the one who leave you, you will forget me one day.. but belive me this person who leave you here, won't forget you and will regret her decision for the rest of her life.. i want you to leave me with a good ways not hating me.. because hate is not a good ways to forget people.. stay healthy and study well and be a good businessman and open your own company.. there's a lot of thing i want to tell you but i know.. the more i write the more you will be hurting.. be happy, my brother